November 19, 2008

My first tag

Ok, Lori-ann tagged me :)
6 quirks of mine :

* I walk everywhere :
I mean EVERYWHERE. My car - is my stroller. Reasons? Many. One car for the family of 5 ( very, very soon ) is one of them. Ecology - another. HEALTH - the biggest. My kids are learning too. My almost 5 year old makes 10 miles a day - no sweat. He runs most of it.

* I eat living foods only :
Raw - is the translation, but I like the word "living" better. It is not just me - we all do. Why? It is natural, it makes us feel great , it has great health benefits and it tastes GREAT!

* I can't stand a day without dance, yet I am happy when we get a "cancelled" day. Isn't that weird? Dance is my stress relief. The harder I work, the better I feel - even the most stressful days transform.

* I don't feel normal if I don't feel sore. Even when pregnant. The hardest time I had was when I had to go on the bedrest for a little bit with this pregnancy. I just can't stand the "normal" feeling.

* I am a clean freak. I cannot stand messy house. Drives me CRAZY. Stresses me out. Everyone in the household is trained by now - want happy mommy/wife : CLEAN.

* I can't stand sitting in the house. I HAVE to get out, at least for 3-4 hours. I have to be on the run all the time to be happy. I love the "crash" days, but only if there are no more then 1 a month. We all get super-tired by the end of the week, but if we get more then 1 day of "non-craziness" we don't know what to do with it.

* An extra one : I can't stand being away from my kids. I feel that children-parent relationship is very important. I homeschool. I take them to work with me. I take them shopping. We clean together. We do everything together. I love having moment to myself, but just a moment. A day is way too long.

Whom am I tagging? Everyone who reads this!

You decide...

My sister-in-law posted the pictures of her projected babies form So , I thought I'd try and see how accurate the projection would be for the two kids we already have :) Here is a picture of Justin-projected-to-be.

And here is a picture of what Justin ended up being :

Here is a picture of Nadya-projected-to-be:

And here is a picture of Nadya as of living :

So, you decide... :) It looks like to my eyes, that Nature definitely did not agree with the 90% accuracy of
I guess, we keep gettin' the weird 10%. :)

November 18, 2008

Livin' an learnin'

We've been very blessed to be able to learn more about different cultures over the years, their traditions and believes. Recently we came in contract with Native American culture and tradition. AND WE LOVE everything we see and learn! It is amazing, really eye opening how the core believes of different cultures - whether from the east, middle east, west or anywhere in the world for that matter, are the same. We had such an amazing experience really connect and see how all the cultures are the same to God and Christ. That there truly IS no difference whether is it an arab, or chinese , or russian , or american - the LOVE OF GOD and FAITH in Him unites us all. We are blessed with such wonderful friends too, that - for once - are not expecting anything, are not judging, and are so loving. We were really learning about our Saviour, and His love is so real it is almost frightening to understand it ( at least to me) I really understand "the fear of God" statement from the scriptures. It is not that He is scary. But it is US that are afraid to accept Him and His love when we understand how absolutely real it is. Learning about other cultures really helped us to connect to Him on a much, much deeper level, and all the things we already knew ( or so we thought) took us to a much deeper understanding. There is one profound truth to all of this - the more I learn , the less I know.

November 14, 2008

Beauty of living

I meant to for a long time , but never got around to posting this wonderful quote by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe :

"Until one is committed
there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back,
always ineffectiveness.
Concerning all acts of initiative
there is one elementary truth,
the ignorance of which kills countless ideas
and splendid plans:
That the moment one definitely commits oneself,
then providence moves too.
All sorts of things occur to help one
that would otherwise never have occurred.
A whole stream of events issues from the decision,
raising in ones favor all manner
of unforeseen incidents and meetings
and material assistance,
which no wo/man could have dreamt would have come
her/his way".

I cannot agree more to these words! It is the idea of our Divine Creator that we chose what we want and commit ourselves , not matter how difficult, how strange or unexpected things are . We are expected to try the unexpected so that we give Him opportunity to show His love for us. I call it FAITH, others call it providence, universe... Whatever the name is, it is the same thing. The one and only thing that brings us closer to our Creator and allows us to discover who we really are.

November 12, 2008

Why we love Obama and hate current medical system...

This is why I HATE medical system. All my pregnancy was nothing , but frustration with medical system. Why I went there in the first place? Well, let's just put it this way : blown away a little by a rough beginning, too stressed out to think, desperate for solution. Since my 2 previous pregnancies were "high risk" ( as I found out later FAR from being so, don't I love doctors by now?) , I just dived again, thinking that "so it is my fate...". Well, I am SO GRATEFUL that God led me to WONDERFUL people that helped me to see things the way they actually are. For the first time I am actually happy being pregnant, baby is doing great, etc. SO. Back to medical system - and let me tell you - MEDICAL SYSTEM has nothing to do with MEDICINE. I got a bill today , before the insurance, for $1700. And then Justin and I look at the dates, and realize that this amount only takes care of less then 2 weeks length of time! And THEN I realize , that all those tests I DID NOT want to have and was really frustrated by , is what the bill isi FOR!!! Now, the BEST part is , that there was one day, where I went in feeling GREAT and the baby was doing GREAT. Apparently, the fact that I came in and the baby decided to sleep at the same time they decided to run tests was not a good reason for waiting for the baby to be awake. And so , they freak out the baby, cause me to have contractions (, now not the baby, BUT I go in severe emotional distress ), and then , guess what???? They charge me OVER $650 for it!!!! And then add to it that they do the ultrasound ( and I cannot see HOW they could, but they obviously can) , and charge me $140-$160 for just switching the position of the U/S machine that I didn't need in the first place!!! Oh, pure frustration.

All I can say, is that I REALLY am excited about all the changes Obama wants to make. Doctors need to start THINKING ABOUT PEOPLE, rather then themselves and money. Needless to say - I am not showing neither my face, nor definitely my belly at perinatology ever again. Or any "system" doctor for that matter.

Cloth, cloth and Dipees!

So, I officially made up my mind 100% to do cloth diapers all the way with this baby. A little bit of a history : I tried with my older 2, and while it was great for a little bit, then things would get crazy. I LEARNED that EDUCATION in every area, INCLUDING DIAPERS is VITAL FOR SUCCESS! I found out , while researching more and educating myself more on cloth diapers, that I WAS DOING IT ALL WRONG in the first place. Yes, I read the instructions that came with the diapers on how to wash them, and I thought I did it right - best "greenest" laundry detergent, etc, etc. It turns out that you have to be careful with those, as many have ingredients that while safe and natural, but will clog your diapers causing it to LEAK. Plus the fact that you have to prewash unused diapers for the best absorbancy... That way you will never have leaks. Yeah.... I wish I was smarter then to read more. I just figured that the leaky part is just a part of a cloth , and finally I got tired of them. So, now that the lesson was learned, I went and found a few good old diapees from my son, when he was a toddler, washed and preped them , and put my 2 year old in them. And -SUCCESS - NO leaks, BETTER absorbancy, and she is NOT happy with being wet ( I am not really suffering to make sure she has all sorts of "feel dry" cloth liners , that I have for a baby - I WANT her to be uncomfortable, so she can get potty trained faster) , and she much rather prefers to try and use a potty on time ( Hooray! It's been a little of a challenge with her...) . So, yeah, I officially completely made up my mind, and feel a little not so smart for not doing the educating job properly before But believe me - i surely did now. I found some amazing diapers, that are an absolute beauty, and a breeze to use, plus, cannot tell you more about the fact of money saving here! But the main reasons for using cloth is the baby/child itself. When my little son was less then a year old, we started researching in that whole "why cloth" thing. And there were quite a few shocking things that we found out. While it is OK to use a disposable on occasion ( like going out, and really not wanting to bother with taking a change + the bag to hold the soiled one ) , it is really NOT good for the baby/child to be sitting in it 24/7 for at least good 2 years. Why - just google, it will be a VERY long post if I start naming the reasons. Even when we went back to disposables, we started using the G-diapers ( which are half disposable/half reusable)
Those , at least were safe, but they did cost - just as diapers would. But there is one thing that I am going to post : Just do an experiment. Take a new diaper ( huggies, pampers, or anything else), cut it in half, and then put a half of diaper on the palm of your hand and take a glass of VERY cold water and pour it on the diaper. And then observe your reaction of shock. The very , very cold water that you were pouring on your diapers will not be feeling cold on your hand at all. The diaper will be VERY worm, and if some of the pieces fall out on your hand, they will be HOT. It is because of CHEMICAL REACTIONS that are happening to make the absorbency possible. Now think - this chemical reaction is skin tight ( literally) to your precious baby. You know those red bottoms? Diaper rash? Yeah... 80% of those are chemical burns. Just do your research. There is nothing like doing an experiment for yourself and reading/seeing facts with your own eyes.
Anyway, but if you ever decide to try cloth - email me! ( or post a comment) I'll surely be happy to help! Now that I know how...

November 06, 2008


This last few days have all been about realization and understanding my own self. I had absolutely no idea what was inside of me, until I started digging inside. I am so grateful for such knowledgeable and loving people to help me get through it. I always believed that emotions affect us so much in everything, but now that I am actually UNDERSTANDING and realizing what I am experiencing, it is just shocking. I feel so grateful to the Lord for making me realize and understand this all in such a loving way.
I had a few hard days figuring out what was going on with me - body and emotions - and finally, today, with the help from Rachel, I think I found the "switch". It is amazing too how much my own state of being affects my children. During the last couple of days I was really emotional, more reactive, etc - in other words, completely dis- balanced. And my kids, end especially my son, was very unsettled, unhappy, kind of don't-know-what-to-do-with-myself person. Today, just after 1 hours , he completely changed. Shockingly. As if he went from being in some sort of fog to complete life again. That really made me think and realize , that all those times, when kids misbehave, it is , probably, 99, of not 100% my own fault and problem. Their little spirits are so tender and pure , they can connect and feel and understand us so much better then we can understand ourselves. And the misbehavior is nothing more then reflexion of our own emotional state. I started to go through my memory of mis-haps that we had, etc, etc, and so far my theory is 100% confirmed. I noticed how much more willing to listen my kids are when I am calm and balanced inside, and I can't point out a single time when they disagreed with me, even though I did not always allowed them to have/do what they wanted. Yet, every single time when I am not "there" all the way, they " seem to do everything to drive me crazy", which, as I realized today is nothing more but my own energy radiating on them. So, who is there to blame , but myself?
We truly create our own reality, and we truly can change the world if we change ourselves first.

November 02, 2008

November is here...

Halloween was great. Pics above are to prove it. The little pirate refused to smile - he got too much into the character :) A little fairy though used her "magic" to the most of her abilities , seeing is being in the costume will get her out of the tantrums without time outs. It didn't . So , she got a whole bunch of "fairy time-outs", faithfully earned though. Veronica, prego pic is for you. :)

It is hard to believe that it was just one week since I updated the blog. It seems like so many things happened in between. And they really did. I meant to write every day, but something new things kept coming and coming. All I am going to say is that I am very grateful for meeting so many wonderful people that lead me to a whole new level of understanding things. I love you all ,and am grateful for each and every one of you.

I am very happy with the decisions I've made in regards to pregnancy. For the first time I am happy and at peace. I am actually happy to have this baby, which is the first if not counting the moment I found out about pregnancy. I am loving being pregnant, and I am excited about birth. I am loving all the new materials I am reading and learning from. I am feeling that I am actually now understanding what it truly means to have a baby - in all beauty of creation, development and birth. I wish for every woman to experience the same. There is a wonderful book that I am reading, and I am loving it. I admire the author for her achievement and the ability to learn so much on her own, as well as sharing it all with the rest of us. I am learning a lot from the book.
Hypnobabies is great! I am loving it! Recommend it to EVERYONE who is pregnant! Seriously! Don't nudge the money - worth every penny. Besides , hospital prep course is just a little less, but "hypnobabies" course is A WHOLE LOT more valuable. I have a home study version, due to time shortage, but I love it.
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